I remember who I was
I see who I become and
I will look forward on who I will be ..
Breath in … Breath out …

I remember who I was
I see who I become and
I will look forward on who I will be ..
Breath in … Breath out …

In de dawn of the winter I met you. I was cold and hurt. You gave me warmth and mend my wounds . I was hesitant to hold your hands but you told me it is just okey.
I learned to trust you , hold you , the sun was rising again , flowers starts to grow. I saw spring and starts to love the songs that birds sang .
On one autumn day , I saw an image of you different from what I used to see. Your words cuts like a knife in my heart. Why ? I felt betrayed . I tried to hang on but in me I know something has changed , something has died .
I tried to heal , to revived … but it was just “I” .. “WE” does not exist anymore.
It’s time , to cut lose , to accept the hurt , betrayal has killed my love for you.
Goodbye .. summer will soon come into my life … as long as I have ME I will be okey

As I walked through the path of Ray … I am and will always choose happiness balance with kindness .
At times when I am out of focus .. out of my ray .. I will take a deep breath seek inside me .
I am the spark , I am the ray … exude , breath … look up , walk on …

How did we spent our rainy day in Paris ?
Luncheon at Le Jules Verne was an experience to keep .
This restuarant is located at the third floor of the very known Eiffel tower . A classy way of visiting this impressive tower with a private elevator , a receptionist and your own private access to the observatory deck of the tower .
With Chef Frédérick Anton ( has been a 3 stars since 2007) leading the service you would expect nothing but perfection on every cuisine that is served . Both the meal and wine were perfectly thought out .
We had the five course meal with two amuses and glasses of savory rose champagne.






Our food varies from Sea urchin to very tasty smoked lamb .
The dessert was the highlight. It was called ” The chocolate dessert” , the chocolates were presented and made into temperature ( warm and cold ) you must start at the warm chocolate mouse then topped it with the cold chocolate.

This will give you one mouthful of food orgasm…
It is bitter , salty ,hot, sweet and cold or I should say magic ….
We closes our luncheon with a coffee paired with these cute chocolates and sponge orange cakes to nibble.


As the skies cried her heart out .. Two friends enjoys the savory rose champagne at the top of the Eiffel tower .

P.s
My dear friend ended her 50th birthday celebration here with a small complimentary mango sorbet with a handwritten in a thin chocolate sheet “happy 50th birthday Ralla ” by the chef 🙂



To cry and aknowledge our weakness is the moment that we are at our bravest
To love even though it hurts
To sing our soul out even though we are bleeding
To stand with dignity and talk with kindness even though we are misunderstood .
And to smile to the world even it is confusing
To stand and know that no matter what …. YOU are enough , You are wonderful..
Bravery is embracing the imperfectness in you ..

“I owned my smile , I owned my happiness ” one of my many day to day mantra .
I smile even if the situation is very hurting and confusing for I believed behind the facade of this situation is a rainbow of lessons awaits me . Lessons that would hone me into a better version of me .
I smile even if tears are rolling down from my cheeks for I believed every sorrow that I have walked through will make me stronger .
Even if it will rain I will smile with grateful heart for I know behind that storm clouds awaits the sunshine of joy.
I will smile to lighten one’s soul , to give them encouragement that no matter what, it is going to be okey .
Choose to share your smile , choose to be happy no matter what , choose to be a better You


Diwali is one of the hindu festival that I love ..
No I am not a Hindu . I am a soul who believes in the harmony of everything in the universe with one Almighty that holds the order
I am a kind of person who respects all beliefs , gender and political stand .
Today starts the Diwali festival this symbolizes the victory of light from the darkness, good over evil , healing over illness and Love over Hate..
May I wish everyone of you the Light of Goodness , Kindneas , Love and Good health radiatates in You

You and I we grow up together
You and I we venture adventures
We cried and laugh
Through joys and sorrow we held each others hand .
You and I may grow and walk on the different path ..But my dear be assured that I will be at corner waiting for you .
You and I will understand each other more than those spoken words
You and I are more than just friends .
You and I are sisters for life
❤️
I will not linger on hate , disappointments and hurt
Life is too short
I will embrace challenges with courage in my heart
I will learn from experiences
Like a butterfly in my cocoon I will spread my colorful wings and fly with kindness , understanding and love in my heart .
Life is not mine to keep but to savour ,enjoy the gifts that will offer me.
Day by day I am and will grow
I am kind , I am enough , I am the universe within me
Breath in …. breath out

A friend of mine once told me a story about a hermit crab and how it changes it’s shell once it becomes too small for them .
This story is one of my reminder everytime things get tough , uneasy and change is inevitable . Like a Hermit crab i should be ready to adopt the changes that are coming , let go of attachments and just move on with the lessons that I have learned from my previous experiences .
Life’s constant variable is change . We grow in a space and at times leave people that no longer embraces our new views . We are constantly face with situations that needs for us to be flexible, patience and brave .
I am in a dawn of change …My heart longed no more to the ones that I used to be passionate . She seeks no more the company of those who used to give her a smile.
I am moving forward , I am letting go of something to be able to embrace a much better future ..
Look up , take a breath , whisper a mantra ” I am water , I am air , I am the universe within me” . I am ready …
